Are You Stuck? Feeling Trapped? Shake it off, Time to Get Back Into Flow!

Laws of Abundance

“Do as I do, be as I am. “ Jesus Christ

“When we strive to become better than we are, everything around us becomes better too.” Paulo Coelho (author of The Alchemist)

Sometimes we forget who we are. Sometimes we think, is this all there is? And if that is true, what is the point of all of this? We all can feel stuck. Trapped even. Unable to get out of the web of the choices we made to get to this point. And then when you are so wrapped in that silky meshy mess, panicking that the gross scary spider is going to come and get you that you lose sight of everything but the panic! The fear! The NEED to get OUT before the monster gets you! Then before you know it, this is what your life is - survival and fear. Trapped in a web and trying to get out.

No longer are you actually going anywhere. You are just GETTING OUT. But “getting out” is not a destination.

And OUT! Is driven by fear which has us thrashing around so much that we just wrap the web even thigh around ourselves so it is now even harder to achieve. It is like one of those Chinese finger traps,you played with as a kid - the harder you pull against it, the tighter it binds you.

But if we stop thrashing and fighting and fearing The Monster (the unknown). If we breathe and take a moment and ask ourselves. Where am I? Who am I? Where am I going? What do I actually want? Where do I want to go? What do I WANT to be doing right now? (in the positive, the answer can’t be ESCAPING or ESCAPISM behavior). If all options are on the table, what would I actually choose to be doing to spend my time if I wasn’t so scared and spending all my energy beating back the tides of change, fear, and all the things I don’t want?

If you could articulate in the positive a destination. I want to be writing a book. I want to go to the gym twice a week. I want a job that fulfills me. I want to have a conversation with my partner. I want an abundant family. I want to laugh. Do you see where I am going with this? What can you articulate in the positive? What do you aspire for yourself? And yeah maybe your mind will say it's a pipe dream. But you know what? It is YOUR pipe dream. And if it brings you joy and light - why is it silly to aspire for that, and to do that, instead of just surviving? instead of just “getting away from THIS.” Because running away is not a destination. Getting away is not a goal. It is running from the monster. Running away from the monster is not running to something at all - it is getting you lost deeper in the woods and going right into the belly of the beast.

If you feel trapped and depressed or scared of what is to come. What if you were not spending all of your time on surviving, on beating back the fear, or trying to get away? If you hate your job and every night you come home and drink a bottle of wine - what is that doing? That is just numbing the pain from the job you hate. Is it getting you a new job that is fulfilling? Is it raising your vibration to a place where you can see a new alternative? Is it giving you anything but escape? Yeah you are surviving the pain. But is that a life? Surviving and enslaved to something you hate?

Our negative ego is a real motherfucker. It makes us believe that running away is a solution. It says STAY SAFE! Don’t leave this box. HIDE! Outside this box is failure - is the inability to pay your bills. Outside, is the eternal question, are you dying alone? Because it says you are not good enough. You don’t deserve nice things. You are not capable. No one likes you. That is for other people. Other people write books, other people take fabulous vacations, other people get graduate degrees and careers they actually enjoy. It is an insidious record that keeps playing over and over again - that keeps you thrashing in the spider web you spun yourself. Keeps you making choices that keep you trapped in a cycle of fear and miserable-ness and not progressing toward something that will actually bring you satisfaction and joy.

And here is the secret. It is not in some new age book from the early 2000s called, The Secret or even just positive thinking, or in that next social media influencers webinar about the 10 steps to financial freedom and happiness. It is none of those things. It is in the most simple (but hard to practice) axiom of Know Thyself. Know thyself as God. Know thy own needs and wants. Your thoughts create your reality. Hermetic Principle #1 - All is Mind. 99% of your success in creating a change in your life comes from how you feel about the situation because every feeling creates a thought, and every thought is acted upon. So if we feel good about where we are going, and are actually consciously choosing where we are going, and know in your heart of hearts that where you are going is what you actually want to do - then you will follow that gratitude filled feeling, into a gratitude and hope filled thought, then apply consistency and discipline to carry out actions daily (little bits every day) that get you somewhere new that you actually WANT to be. And after some effort you will find yourself free of your bondage and looking forward to even more amazing things as you take action in the present moment. But until YOU CHOOSE an actual DESTINATION that you want and desire then you will never ever be able to get there. Because no one ever gets anywhere when you are running away from your life.

This is your life. You only get one. What do you want to be spending your precious minutes on? How much time and energy have you spent beating back the fear? What is the worst that could happen if you paused and surrendered to whatever you are avoiding and chose what you actually want? Then and only then do you realize just how futile and useless the fight that fear is. How irrelevant - and that all your writhing and drama and gesticulation was just an ugly dance that you can stop. And finally,with clarity and simplicity you can step out from by deciding with discernment and your will to set your mind, your thoughts, words and acts toward the true desire you have in your heart of hearts, for the best and highest good. Then you will be free of the bonds of the web you wove. The box you stapled yourself into and you can live as the god/goddess you truly are and start creating your reality.

And THIS is the magick that Jesus spoke of and embodied as a Hermetic teacher. This is why he was able to create miracles - and was trying to teach us to do the same. “Do as I do. Be as I am.” “Everything I can do, you can do and more.” Jesus Christ was a Hermetic Teacher. When he was alive there was no such thing as Christianity. There was Judaism and Jesus was ethnically Hebrew and he is referred to as a Rabbi but he wasn’t Jewish either. In the annals of time and translation rabbi simply meant teacher. And Jesus was just that - a teacher of Hermetics. Hermetics and any Hermetic principle is from the mind of God. It is the understanding of God’s mind without human pollution. If it is Hermetic it will benefit people and always be good. Because God does no harm. Hermetics creates clarity which simplifies life - thus increasing our potential to act as God in this life. Whereas the human mind creates complications and traps us in fictions and stories. And ultimately this is what Jesus was teaching - and like good humans we have complicated his words and made a religion out of him which separates what he could do from what we can do. Which is the exact opposite of his teaching. “Do as I do. Be as I am.” In other words “Act like the God/Goddess you are. Master your mind by doing the will of God.”

Jesus was and is one of the greatest teachers for humanity in all time - and as a master of light he mastered his negative ego completely in this physical life and as a result could create miracles. He used every single one of his gifts as a human being for its intended purpose in its intended way. And although he was special (because he had a unique mission to bring the ray of love and compassion to this planet for all of us to experience) his message to all of us was that HE WAS NOT SPECIAL. In that everything he could do, we can do. Our job is to LISTEN to him, to take him as an example of possibility and to start living that possibility. And through his teachings become the teachings - just as he was.

Now he did some amazing party tricks (though turning water into wine back in the day just made the water safe to drink) he also defied the laws of physics, cleared negativity, and cured the sick. However, the potential to do all of this is within us as well. And humans have created miracles again and again. The examples we have from the gospels (albeit told through the lens of religion, politics, two hundred or more years, translation from aramaic to greek to latin to english) are examples of a clear will (desire from a place of purity) applied with the rules of Hermetics and the power inherent in this existence as a fully actualized human being connected to spirit acknowledging our power as God - you can have a major impact on this physical world. You can defy the laws of physics. You can create miracles. You can just simply live a joyful life. But it all starts by setting your will in motion and remembering that you are god. You are a powerful being that can affect your reality through your feelings, thoughts, choices and actions.

With Jesus we weren’t supposed to start a religion. We were supposed to discern. To learn. To follow in his footsteps versus follow him. If we say “Jesus take the wheel!” you abdicate responsibility for your life and that is in the exact opposite of what he was getting at for us. Did we ever hear of Jesus saying “Father DO everything FOR me?” Yet we do this all the time with Jesus, with our jobs, by blaming other people, by pouring our sorrows into a bottle or any other substance. We abdicate our responsibility and we run away to our hiding place prison and we stay safe in our survival mechanisms.

Bringing me back to my point. All of us forget how powerful we are from time to time. Or maybe we have no fucking clue we have any power at all. We forget or are completely ignorant that in most cases we actually hold the keys to let ourselves out from our chosen prison.

We are all at some point like the figures in the The Devil card of the Rider Waite Tarot deck -held in chains to a big hairy winged beast of a problem but the chains are actually loose enough to simply lift off of our necks, if we desire to remove them. We chain ourselves to the false God (the thing outside of ourselves that is not us). We chain ourselves to the Devil, to a demon, to a false idol, we make something or something else God, and we deny our own power. We say we have no choice. We had to. I need this escape to cope because I can’t leave him or her. I can’t leave my job. I’ll die if I remove the chains of slavery. But you won’t - the truth is you’ve abdicated your power and voluntarily chained yourself to the external thing and forgotten your power as God. As the author of your story. As the determinant of your own destiny. Then you’ve focused on staying safe, or getting away, or NOT being in the chains you feel trapped in.

I’ve been personally chewing on all of this because recently I felt a little bit trapped by my own circumstances. Even though I KNEW LOGICALLY that it was all my choice and all really for the good. But in preparing for the Florida Bar Exam for over 7 months it started to take a toll on me and I began to forget why I was doing it. And as my ability to focus on my business was distracted by study, my partner's health, my own arthritis pain, my sense of lack when some things didn’t go as planned and I was disappointed by some individuals. I spent every last bit of my effort preparing for the test then used what little I had left to move twice and learn how to be in a new cohabitation situation. And with my distractions and the challenges - I stopped flowing the normal abundant client load I usually do for a myriad of reasons. And of course I started getting concerned that I didn’t have enough time or money and my thoughts and feelings turned to lack and fear and this just enhanced the worry and lack and thus had me starting to feel trapped. Trapped because passing the bar is a big slow thing and Seattle is far away from my home in Florida, and trapped because I have to be vulnerable in my relationship and I can’t run away anymore. And trapped because I have to communicate about my finances and don’t have the same overflow I’m used to. All of these things were not helpful. Because I said before 99% of your success is how you FEEL about something versus the actual tactical logical work you put into it. So here I was working in a way that SHOULD have resulted in my usual flow but it wasn’t - but the thing that was off was my fear. It was my lack mentality. Plans are definitely still helpful but your own thoughts will destroy the best plan. So as long as I feel scared and trapped and in lack, that is the energy I am going to attract. And no one wants a worried estate planning attorney or an abundance & flow coach who is in lack.

But luckily I have a practice and a path to follow and a community of lightworkers to recharge in. I have teachings and things to study that can bring me around and back to my core purpose, strengthen my will, and turn me back to gratitude. So this trap was a brief mindset blip and now that I’m out of the gauntlet I can actually start holding gratitude for the bar exam and the time to work on client flow, teamwork with my new team members and communication with my love and life partner. I remember why I am doing this work. My law license allows me to help so many families create plans that will protect them in their time of need. And my purpose and mission in light work helps me remember I am not trapped. I am choosing this. I will allow the will of God to flow through me. And use Jesus as a light and as a master teacher guiding my heart in every moment. Because that is where he has been since I was a small child, guiding me to live as he lived. Do as he did. To be in my life an embodiment of his teachings in my unique way in this physical life. There is nothing to run away from. I am not stuck in any trap. I choose everything and I can remove any obstacle. And I have built a beautiful life based on my choices and I will continue to do so. A joyful life doesn’t result from things being easy or handed to you - in fact sometimes the hardest things in life bring the most value.

I laugh as I wonder which was harder? The Florida Bar exam or being vulnerable and in true partnership with another human being. . To be honest, I know it is the latter. Taking a test and getting a piece of paper is easy. I’ve done it time and time again. Helping people as a lawyer is easy. I’ve done it time and time again. But being in a relationship with someone I love and who loves me, growing myself and actualizing myself as an authentic human being is incredibly challenging! Don’t get me wrong - I have prayed and manifested this type of partnership and love, but that doesn't make it not terrifying. To be even more honest, sometimes coexisting and being in real love with my person, scares the living shit out of me. Because my negative ego is constantly being proved wrong. I am lovable separate from the things I provide to people in this world. What a concept? I feel like - even now I have to say it twice to truly believe it. I AM LOVEABLE DESPITE WHAT SERVICE I CAN PROVIDE FOR OTHERS! … and you are too.

I am God. YOU ARE GOD. WE ARE GOD. Fully worthy of giving and receiving tremendous amounts of love + prosperity. So let’s start creating some miracles - shall we?

The homework for this episode is simple - well that is, if you allow it to be.

Love yourself like your life depends on it - because it does. Know Thyself. Know God. Do as God would do. And CHOOSE to love yourself more than your struggle.

Don’t overthink it - just start - a small change in the right direction can make a huge impact.

And if you get lost along the way and need further inspiration - I can help with that! Drop me a line at [e-mail]. I will leave you in the words of author Roald Dahl

“And above all watch with glittering eyes the whole world around you because the greatest secrets are always in the most unlikely places. Those who don’t believe in magick will never find it.”